A given group of people are not a monolith. While we do share a lot of similarities, we also all have the potential to be a little different from one another.

I hope you get a chance to find someone that will allow you to be open like that again. Sharing those emotions and having someone their to empathetically receive them is one of the most gratifying things as a human.

Yep disabled Internet and I cast video from my phone to the TV so I can control what appears on the screen.