Hi everyone.
When I try to follow a schedule to eat, clean my room and do my homework, it feels good at the beginning, but as time goes on, it just doesn’t feel good anymore.
I’m not even sure if I even feel trully happy about doing all of my responsibilities.
It doesn’t feel as if a burden has been lifted of my shoulder.
It doesn’t feel as if I were “refreshed” or more energetic after I do all of these.
I started slowly like my therapist recommended: I did a schedule to eat 3 times a day. It started rocky but then I manage to do it… but only for a while. Eating just didn’t feel good either.
Every single time I finally clean my room, I don’t feel any good: it just feels as though I wasted time because I don’t feel any better.
Doing math homework is fun, philosophy to, but I don’t like any of the other subjects I actually need to do homework for.
I know it might seem childish to only do things that feel good but I hate not being able to feel anything at all, especially when I do things that are supposed to help me but don’t make me feel anybetter afterwards.
Has someone here went through anything similar? What do you do then, if so?
Edit: I have read all of your replies so far, but I don’t know how to respond properly to them. All I can think of is to say thank you! I will try to change things (although slowly) today using your tips.
Everything you are saying makes perfect sense. Many of the tasks we do are simply because they are necessary. You get a boost from the schedule when it is ‘new’ but as time goes on that fades. Habit is a powerful tool. Keep to the same things at the same time making things automatic.
It sounds like you may not just have adhd, but your mention of feeling ‘nothing’ sounds a bit like a depressive symptom. You may want to talk with a doctor. If it is depression there are medications that start to get you on the right track.
But also talk-therapy may be suitable to help. (I have both talk-therapy and an antidepressant. I’m not suggesting prescriptions aren’t sometimes necessary, but it shouldn’t be assumed.)
very true, for me the medicine made a large impact. For others it’s only part of the puzzle.