Title really. I don’t think I will ever have a traditional career (or path) because there are just too many things I want to do. Anyone with ADHD knows i’m sure, that when you even have so much as a few household chores to do, it can take you ages to even start. My problem kind of extends beyond the scope of little things, I seem to want so much out of life that it leaves me not wanting to do anything at all because it feels overbearing. I never finished college or chose a career because of this too, sometimes I get a goal in my head so it becomes my focus for some months then i get burnt out and move on to something else and it repeats in a circle.
I don’t think I am adhd, but I am neurodivergent (bipolar). I had a minor manic period for three or four weeks and am currently in a mild depression. I bought all these books and some computer equipment to further my pursuit of computer security work but now I’m just spinning my wheels and watching endless content online. It sucks but things could be a hell of a lot worse, so there’s that.
I hope you find something engaging and turn the corner. At least you’re interested in finding a change.