You’re not weak for finding out what your limitations are, comrade. Everyone is different and have their own tolerances and limitations. Being vulnerable to yourself and acknowledging that is not weakness. And while yes, the Palestinians have it way rougher right now, having to do anything they can to survive an ongoing genocide, that does not mean your own difficulties and limitations are not important too, you probably live worlds apart from them and your life is also going on.

I think the best course of action would be to try to hold on a little longer there and at the same time try to contact a mental health professional. That way you could still try to be in your current job a little longer to see how things go while also seeking the help you need right now.

And like another comrade already told you, if the place is so toxic and you’re the only counter to that, your presence there matters a lot. You don’t need to be confrontational of them, as that can create animosity between you and the other workers, but being able to listen, assert your position and stand your ground when needed, could be the change they need to be able to pierce the veil of ideology they are clearly immersed in.

You didn’t say he ever claimed to be a fascist, but speaking from an outside perspective he sounds just like that without the self-label. The reason I say that is because when I was still a lib that knew jack shit of politics, my only friend group had fascists in it, the kind that will call themselves fascists without hesitation, but that are all too much of a coward to do anything. Still they would say basically everything you described in here, and even worse stuff, antisemitism was a big one among them.

When I became increasingly aware of what being a fascist actually meant and started to see through them, instead of cutting it right away I naively tried my best to change them, not realizing that was impossible. I still hate that I didn’t leave that group sooner. Being an autistic, social anxious and introverted person, I clung to the group from fear of ever feeling lonely.

I’m only now realizing how much that group fucked me up mentally and it fucking sucks.

Nowadays, while I do feel lonely, most people around me are just libs that know little or close to nothing of politics but that are all well-meaning people. My attempts at politicizing and bringing class consciousness to them have met only some success, but I’m learning along the way and I’m sure one day I’ll be able to connect better with them on that front. Most of the time I can’t even bring myself to say what I want, probably because of the way I had to act around the old group, and when I actually do say what I want, it’s like my body wants to shut down, so it’s really hard. Luckily I have a good psychologist that is slowly helping me with this.

I do want to say tho, please prioritize your well-being. As much as I completely agree with you wanting to say how much you despise Tony to his face when you leave, weight in if it is safe to do so when the time comes.

Youtube is usually pretty good in recommending me leftist content, but every now and then some bullshit like you’re describing shows up to me too, sometimes all the recommended to the side of a given video is full of right wing bullshit. I have the impression social media in general is going to shit. Twitter is full of fascists, Instagram (and Tik Tok to some extend) have some of the most vitriolic comments you’ll see, and are probably being infested with fascists too.

I haven’t seen a documentary about that, but the movie Judas and the Black Messiah is about the Panthers and Hampton’s assassination. I don’t know how accurate it really is because I still don’t know much about the Panthers, but I did like the movie itself a lot. It manages to not only show the Panthers in a very good light, but also shows how reactionary the US can be against those that truly fight capitalism.

You mean the one made by Boy Boy? They aren’t a couple despite everyone thinking they are, me included fora while lol. The other videos they do are just as good tho. Also Alex’s channel, I did a thing, has some of the most hilarious content I’ve ever seen.

Yeah, as a neurodivergent person too, I also faced bullying and it was fucking horrible.

I can see bullying still being an issue on the first generation of people living in a socialist society, but as the individualistic ideology starts fading in favor of a more collective one, it will probably become much less of an issue.

That being said, it’s probably a good idea for said society to actually teach people how to be parents, teach professionals how to deal with bullying at school, etc. I always found weird how school never teaches kids this stuff in my country. If we learned at some point in the educational system how to parent, it would probably lead to a much healthier family relationships in general on society.

There’s also other stuff that can and should be done, like teaching about neurodivergent people, about limits, respect, empathy, etc.

One thing is for certain tho, I cannot see bullying stopping under capitalism.

That’s awesome, I wanted to get a tattoo of the antlers too, but haven’t been able to yet, hopefully sometime in the future I get it.

Carmilla is that vamp novel that predates Dracula, right? Hope it’s a good read, I’ve wanted to read it for a while but always forget it exists until something reminds me.

Yes that’s the one. I’m only a few chapters in and besides one racist passage it’s been pretty good so far. It’s much more sapphic than I expected lol. Also the book is very short, I’m just slow to read at the moment.

I usually buy from bookstores when I go to the mall, but shit’s expensive and I haven’t gone in a while, so I’m mostly just sailing the high seas for now.

Right now I’m reading Carmilla by Sheridan Le Fanu, still on the very beginning of the book, and I also started rereading Marx: An Introduction by Jorge Grespan, it’s very short and only available in portuguese I think, but helped me grasp some concepts I struggled a bit before.

I remember seeing tankie being used only a couple of times when I was a lib, then eventually as I was leaning ever more left, I joined r/196 and that’s when I started seeing it being used a lot more and started understanding what it meant. By that time I didn’t even know much about socialism, let alone communism, so I just thought that the folks there were probably right in “attacking the tankies” since they probably knew much more than I did.

Well, was I wrong, lol. Good thing there’s a lot of good ML content on youtube, otherwise I probably would still be a lib by now.

Right now, my phone’s front camera is busted since 1 and a 1/2 to 2 years now.

But in the past, usually issues with my PC. First was the CPU or my motherboard, I still don’t know which one was the problem, but it would freeze and I needed to hard reset. Ended up changing both, so the issue went away.

Then it was my GPU, it would crash frequently on some titles and had heavy stuttering. It would downclock extremely for a brief moment all the time, but only when at 99% usage. I had to hard reset all the time too, had to RMA it twice before the issue was fixed.

And lastly it was my SSD. I still have this 1TB nvme, where again it would just freeze and require a hard reset. I knew it was the SSD because there was some indication on the logs of my system. I ended up buying another one, but I should still RMA the old one because I think it’s still under warranty, just need to check it.

Gachas and lootboxes are addictive and money grubbing. You cannot do much about them. Casinos, gambling and lootboxes have existed for thousands of years, with not just capital but objects, kingdoms and even people used as bets. Now in modern world its just some currency bills as bets.

I get what you’re saying, but there’s a difference between me gambling 50 currency with my friends on who is gonna win X match and a full blown casino or videogame that uses every psychological tactic possible to manipulate me into spending more and more money at every turn. One is a social interaction between people, the other is an exploitative tactic to make you spend. You can a 100% allow one and ban the other.

I have a principle set in stone as a belief and basis for all things in life and beyond, Pareto’s principle. I think morality, communism/altruism and all these things are also not 100% applicable, but only 80% (or 85, 90% whatever). So we will always be stuck with that 10-20% of capitalism, for example. And beyond that is diminishing returns. It is better to accept that, and work towards efficiency and optimal results.

I don’t want in any shape, way or form to disrespect what you believe and since you said it’s set on stone I have no intent on changing it whatsover, but I think a more materialist approach could help here.

The DPRK exists and it is full on socialist. Sure it isn’t communist yet, and won’t be until the rest of the world becomes socialist, but there’s nothing to suggest we can’t fully achieve it.

Again, I agree and I’m aware of the stuff you talk in the first paragraph. I’m from Lemmygrad, I defend China as an AES country.

Now for the second paragraph, I’m not trying to blame China for gacha, I’m just pointing it out as an issue that also exists there. That comes with their acceptance of capital, and is something they can be criticized for. My criticism is not to belittle them, but because I believe they can do better.

There was recent news of China clamping down on lootboxes and predatory monetization in gaming, which would be great and would set a precedent for the rest of the world, but last I saw they walked back on it.

I don’t play Genshin, I only used it as an example, but I play League Of Legends, which is owned by Riot Games that is owned by Tencent and recently there has been the inclusion of gacha mechanics for skins that heavily relies on fomo for people to spend money on, and it’s really expensive. Meanwhile Riot also just fired 530 people worldwide and killed multiple projects and iniciatives inside the company, while starving other projects too. This is a billion dollar worth company owned by Tencent, and it all deserves criticism like any other games and companies.

I agree with you, I was just giving a simple example of more simple product, I didn’t mean to imply that the relations are exactly the same to the ones in a capitalist country, neither that China isn’t responsible for basically all the production in the world and affordable access to said production.

Still, while most private companies can’t just do whatever they want like in the rest of the world, the fact of the matter is that profit is still the primary concern for a lot of consumer products made in China, and it’s something worth to keep in mind. The existence of gacha games like Genshin are a perfect example of this.

I don’t think we can succeed on platforms owned by the right wing, and that defeats the entire point.

We might not be able to succeed long term, but these platforms can be subverted to our cause in the mean time. Of course that while we are irrelevant these platforms don’t care about us and in fact transform us into yet another product to sell. Capitalism subsuming all critics into itself and all that.

Having the content over at multiple platforms help, but if you can start gathering people online in a mainstream platform, once you have enough people you can start to move into decentralized spaces like here and/or matrix for when we are not accepted anymore.

I can even give a concrete example of this. There’s a growing number of communist content creation channels here in Brazil (in fact they are the reason I became a communist, lol). Quite a few of the biggest names of these comrades in youtube and twitch are part of a collective, which have a discord server of 60k+ people right now, and previously there was mention of they studying alternative platforms and open source in general to move into, since they are getting big enough to the point where if either youtube or discord wants, most of their work online will get lost. I don’t think there have been any more updates on this yet, but it’s something they are aware about.

The problem is that the right can do and say almost whatever they want, but if the left starts to talk the same way we get banned.

I haven’t seen this before. From what I saw it just doesn’t work to use their tactics. If we lie like them we can’t build trust, so it’s not a luxury we can have. If we make “photo of capitalism country bad, photo of communist country good” memes, it doesn’t work because we are not the dominant ideology, when they do the opposite, the majority of people already agrees with the message from years and years of propaganda and it just reinforces their views.

It’s a difficult situation where we need to get creative and must go with the hype and latest trends to try and subvert the narrative whenever possible. Having more communist content creators that cover different topics and spheres is always good tho. Class conscience needs to be disputed in the nerd online spaces, just likes it needs in the programming, gaming, development, fitness, and other spaces, on all platforms in as many languages as possible.

I rarely see people do this, not even leftist accounts I follow. Which made me think, should we be less afraid about calling shit like this out? To send some sort of message that we are not afraid of losers like them? Or do you think it is counter productive to do so?

Oh this type of stuff should be called out in a more aggressive manner a 100%. Far too often I see both communists and “left” liberals just replying mildly to straight up racism or fascism online. I see it all the time on twitter, youtube, instagram and reddit.

Sometimes a simple “go fuck yourself you racist piece of shit” is way more impactful than trying to make a point or using reason when responding.

Yeah, but Chinese private companies are still that, private companies that are profit driven. There’s exciting and even cheap to buy stuff coming out of China, like IEMs for example, but it’s still a good ideia to keep expectations in check for the motivation of these companies.

I prefer to keep Shader Precaching on for the Media Foundation fix that Valve uses, but I left Background Processing of Vulkan Shaders off, if I’m not wrong this way it should only update when you open a game.

Alternatively you could disable it and use Proton-GE for the games that need the Media Foundation fix. Performance should be the same nowadays with it on or off.

I’m only gonna comment on Hexbear and you’re completely wrong. They do have less patience with libs comming there saying shit, but everytime that happens, there’s always people actually engaging and backing up all of their claims. It’s not only dunking.

Yes please! The grad proletariat yearns for the emojis.