I have weird quirk/tendency to stop listening / be distracted when someone explains something like during lectures for example. I fking hate this and it makes me dangerously close to failing college.
Generally, I don’t have it elsewhere. Just when someone is doing a verbal explanation, online or in person.
Perhaps it’s an issue of concentration, although generally I am able to do homework when I’m alone and focussing on it. At same time, I do get distracted relatively easily.
What is wrong with me? How to force myself to pay attention during classes and not doze off?
If your mind is wandering off to specific topics, maybe it just feels these need to be addressed now. The relative calm of the lecture gives it space to.
If that is the case, it can help to create a space for your mind to attend to these topics. You can talk with people about it, ventilate emotions, and/or write the thoughts down before lecture, so your mind has less need to cling to them.
This can also help when you cannot sleep because of thoughts.